Narcissist On The Verge Of A Nervous Breakdown

James Crywank's Blawg

Wed, 08 May 2013 14:41:04 +0100

Get Sad, Stay Rad, Reject Cool, Be Nice!

I got a new blog for writing about crywank stuff on, I’m pretty bad at blogging but I’ll try and give this some regular updates!!

Yesterday in London I went up a big hill and recorded some songs...

Tue, 07 May 2013 11:24:10 +0100

Yesterday in London I went up a big hill and recorded some songs with my friends Poodle, Ren and Joe. Here’s what we did! (Share if you care).

yurei-chan: i drew a flyer for the brighton hop along show....

Wed, 03 Apr 2013 11:37:46 +0100

yurei-chan:

i drew a flyer for the brighton hop along show. please reblog and come to it if you can x

Hannah B’z the bezt!

bradenf: A photo from today’s Woodpile Sound InSession with...

Fri, 29 Mar 2013 20:44:48 +0000

bradenf:

A photo from today’s Woodpile Sound InSession with Crywank

James Is Going To Die Soon (2010)http://www.mediafire.com/?ioss4t89pkqx13yNarcissist On The Verge Of...

Tue, 19 Mar 2013 20:25:58 +0000

James Is Going To Die Soon (2010)
http://www.mediafire.com/?ioss4t89pkqx13y

Narcissist On The Verge Of A Nervous Breakdown (2012)
http://www.mediafire.com/?03yoqg056ejd8dl

Tour Demos (2013)
http://www.mediafire.com/?qcrc6kwagxfqotf

Crywank 2013

Sun, 17 Mar 2013 14:17:23 +0000

Crywank 2013

hideousnight: Sorry but what is Nostril Tampon about A girl whose mother makes her pretend to be a...

Wed, 13 Mar 2013 00:54:00 +0000

hideousnight:

Sorry but what is Nostril Tampon about

A girl whose mother makes her pretend to be a boy, with a fake penis, because young girls make her feel insecure, and the girl then menstruates from her nose?

What

I’ll hook you up with the story, I get e-mails about this a lot asking! It’s just a silly story really from my youth.

I’ve always been a really paranoid person. When I was young I had truman show fantasies about being filmed all the time, another example is thinking my parents had paid everyone I was friends with to be friends with me. In my early teenage years I was quite the late developer, and around the time the song is based it was starting to become obvious in comparison with the other boys in my school year. I was one of the smallest boys, tiny frame, my body was hairless and my dick wasn’t growing. I remember thinking it sucked and dwelling on it all the time.

At school we where given diaries to write down notes about work in, but I’d also write small facts about things that had happened at school that day in mine. Upon re-reading through the diary later in the year I’d noticed something bizarre that had continued the following month after noticing it. Although I’d always had regular nosebleeds throughout my childhood, I’d noticed in the diary that every month around the 20th to the 25th I’d recorded having one or two nosebleeds.

The paranoid maniac that lives within me went nuts. I begun piecing together evidence from my life to support a pretty dumb theory. That my parents had given me a sex change at birth and connected my fallopian tubes to my nostrils. My mum used to sometimes talk about how happy she was to have two boys, as she thought girls would have made her feel old and judged her dress sense (she gets silly and insecure too). This was obviously her subtle way of telling me that I had an infant sex change because of her insecurities, thus explaining my small frame, never-growing penis and also the fact that i used to try on my female friends clothes when I was really young.

Then the nosebleeds stopped, I grew some pubes and some more dick and felt pretty stupid about how worked up I can get over nothing. Then I wrote a song, but to try and not make it too obvious wrote it from the perspective of myself when I was young. Then I explained the song online afterwards for the eyes of the ever-judging internet and felt kind of stupid again.

New album out this summer guys :)

I got a mullet.

Wed, 23 Jan 2013 12:03:52 +0000

I got a mullet.

I just really really wanted to say thank you. Both of your albums have come into my life recently and at just the right time. JIGTDS was posted in a sadcore /mu/ thread and I was intrigued the second I saw the name (well done). Since giving the albums a deep listen, including getting drunk to them and weeping uncontrollably, I have become influenced enough to try and start my own acoustic project to project my cryptic emotions. So again, thankyou James. I love you.

Wed, 23 Jan 2013 01:48:27 +0000

thats amazing to hear! my e-mail is iamcrywank@gmail.com , please e-mail me your stuff i’d love to hear it! all the best!

What kind of shoes do you wear? c:

Wed, 23 Jan 2013 01:47:41 +0000

bad ones that are falling apart :)

Is it truth your mom says you're 'tearjerk'?

Wed, 23 Jan 2013 01:47:04 +0000

she sure does. she don’t wanna be swearing in front of her friends!

your music has the same effect elliott smith has on me. it's so depressing and personal like an understanding friend. i am very much addicted. thank you

Wed, 23 Jan 2013 01:46:32 +0000

Thank you so much, thats a wild compliment.

Talking of Newcastle - I spent Valentine's night 2011 wandering around Newcastle city centre high as a kite singing 'Hikikomori'. My friends apparently found me in a takeaway at 4am, still singing.

Wed, 23 Jan 2013 01:45:47 +0000

happy to hear this, hopefully i’ll be hitting up newcastle for the 2012 march tour :)

New Crywank Songs online, with percussion! One last push before...

Tue, 15 Jan 2013 15:55:04 +0000

New Crywank Songs online, with percussion! One last push before tour, please reblog and help us spread our music. http://crywank.bandcamp.com/

Crywank - Notches New song from the 2013 Tour...

Thu, 10 Jan 2013 15:49:00 +0000

Crywank - Notches

New song from the 2013 Tour Demos
crywank.bandcamp.com

New Crywank Songs Online

Wed, 09 Jan 2013 09:48:48 +0000

New Crywank Songs Online

jeffmangumssweatercollection: o HA! \m/

Mon, 17 Dec 2012 06:51:50 +0000

jeffmangumssweatercollection:

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HA! \m/

Me & Gentle Ben 2

Sat, 24 Nov 2012 14:44:14 +0000

Me & Gentle Ben 2

Me & Gentle Ben 1

Sat, 24 Nov 2012 14:43:37 +0000

Me & Gentle Ben 1

iwasalonelyestatebuilding: Crywank - Hikikomori HA i got a...

Fri, 23 Nov 2012 03:13:33 +0000

iwasalonelyestatebuilding:

Crywank - Hikikomori

HA i got a comic. Rad.